A page from my life

Long long ago you were a person who who used to always fix things up, patched friendships,bothered to stay in touch, did everything for everyone, even went out of the way to please people and did things for them when they didn't even deserve... But how long are you going to be able to do this, there comes a point when you have to just let go. And BAM!!!  you just have stopped caring all of a sudden... You have people leaving you, people judging you and telling you that you've changed, that you don't bother anymore. I don't care what people think of me. I don't care what others expect of me. I don't care that people are going away..  I don't care that I am not bothered anymore. I don't care that I have changed.. I DON'T CARE THAT I DON'T CARE... And so shouldn't you..  "You cannot take care of everyone" someone had told me this a long time ago which I never took seriously but yes it does make sense now... Maybe a part of you would...

Life is very very strange. Everytime we figure out something, something new turns up. It really makes me wonder about what Christopher Gardener said in The pursuit of happYness, "That maybe  happiness is something that we can only pursue  and maybe we  can  actually never have it. No matter what." Life really really sucks at times. Just when you think that you have it all figured out, it all goes haywire. When you truly and desparately try to get something, you never ever get that. But the thing comes to you and become yours when you just don't want it anymore or you accept the fact that you don't want it anymore... And again when you feel okay about having something, it suddenly is no more yours. All you can do is sit and wonder,  what the Fuck is wrong...  Why does it have to be so complicated... Why can't we have a simple uncomplicated life, with a happy ending. I so wish that google had solutions for all these problems as well. Maybe it's meant to ...